I'm a sad, pathetic mess that dares to call herself a human being. It's been a month and I'm still hooked on her. My ex-turned-best friend. I long for the days before the break up; where all it took to make me so happy I was over the moon was for her simply hold my hand. I miss the moments where, (jokingly of course), our guy friends would hit on me and she would simply wrap her arms around me, hold me tight against her, and dared them to try. I was utterly her's. Her smiles made me melt, and her laughter always washed my stress away.

I miss those days where I was in a perpetual bliss and I wasn't receiving threats from family and friends every other day or so.

I know they mean the best. I can't help it if I don't want to eat. I'm not hungry. I'm never hungry anymore. And I can't help it if I can't sleep. I can't help it if my mind is mulling over the possibilities in my head. What if I had tried a little harder? What if she never "lost interest"? What if Bo had never come in between us?

I hope he's damn proud of himself. He made her stronger, but he tore me apart unknowingly. Or maybe he does know. I hope he's happy with himself. Maybe I'll get lucky and the guilt will eat him alive. Or karma will bite him in the ass. Karma is a bigger bitch than I could ever be.

I spent all the time I was awake last night and this morning thinking of nothing but her, and watched the sun start its climb into the sky. I hate myself, because I know the second I call her or she calls me her voice will instantly make me smile - despite the fact how much I hurt inside, and hurt a little more with every hang up. And no matter how damn angry I am, or how much I cry, she can always make me laugh. Where the fuck is the justice in that?

I guess I'm just not getting my fairytale ending.

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All of my characters' pages are now complete.

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To Do:

1. For Finale x Pluto Ferdinand Foal (One foal, male)
2. For Alique x Nylee Foal (Twin males)
3. For Tatsuya x Brigette Nicole Foal (Twin females)